What have you done today? Another coffee morning? Are the first words my husband says as he comes in from work. My response is always the same….. ‘of course, it’s what I do’ And these days it is what I tend to do on a weekly (daily) basis, however at the same time I am also meeting some pretty awesome women.
I decided that I would take this year to meet new people, explore new opportunities and help others. Why? Because basically I was feeling lost, maybe I’m going through a mid-life crisis at 39? I don’t know, but when friends and family kept asking me what I was going to do now that both kids were in school, I didn’t know what to say.
Major life events have passed, buying our first home, getting married, having a good job, getting pregnant, moving house (many times) and the only big event on the horizon seemed to be hitting the big 40! I started to feel quite down and I didn’t want to feel like this. I want to have many more achievements ahead of me.
So I started to contemplate what I wanted to do. I remember reading a book called ‘Year of Yes’, by Shonda Rhimes and it instantly struck a chord with me. I must start saying yes to new opportunities, rather than trying to come up with a list of reasons why I shouldn’t. The first yes came when I saw a Facebook post from a person I didn’t know. It was an advert calling for film extras whom had a connection to the military community to appear in a period drama. Interesting! I loved Downtown Abbey! I could be in something like that, how amazing would that be?!
But I procrastinated so much that the deadline came and went, and I kicked myself. So I decided to register with the agency. I registered and the following week I was sent an availability requested. I read the brief and I sent my response……’available’. I was chosen and a slight panic settled in.
WTF was I doing?! All sorts started running through my head and my heart started beating 10 to the dozen.
The day came and it was so bloody exciting I was beaming from ear to ear when I got home that day. When I arrived it was just like a scene from Ricky Gervais’ Extras TV programme. I was taken to a double decker bus, where they served a hot breakfast and you got to meet other extras. We sat and chatted for some time but for the majority of the time I just listened to their stories. I was amongst ‘pros!’
When it was my call time, I was so nervous. I could feel my heart beating through my chest and the blood pumping round my body.
My time came …… in my scene, I walked in, interacted with the main actor and walked out! Done! I drove home thinking that that wasn’t so bad, and started looking forward to the next opportunity.
This was just the beginning. I had been given a big confidence boost and so I decided to run with it. You could say that this is when I started to see the road ahead of me and that things were going to be OK. I wasn’t going to feel lost forever, I just needed to feel confident in myself again.